welcome to tequila / monk

"Originally there is nothing.

But Buddha practiced unmoving under the
Bodhi tree for six years,

And for nine years Bodhidharma sat silently in Sorim.

If you can break the wall of your self,
You will become infinite in time and space."

-- Zen Master Seung Sahn

Feb
24

Dreams of the family, and 11 people drowning

Lots of packing and moving activity lately (I'm moving back to Alaska next week), but I just wanted to note lots of dreams of the family lately, and the thought this morning I had as I was waking up of 11 people drowning. FWIW, the family dreams have included my father, who passed away 16 years ago.

Feb
23

Another dream of a song

Quick note: Another wonderful song in the dreams this morning. Sorry, I was too lazy to record it, but it was a really terrific pop/love song by a female artist I don't know. I was humming it during a bathroom break during the middle of the night, and assumed I'd remember it in the morning, but of course I didn't, lol.

Feb
22

Split-screen dream!

I'm not feeling very well at the moment, but I wanted to note that this afternoon was the first time I ever had a "split screen" dream. It was a very vivid dream, and I was seeing two stories at once, one on the left, and another on the right. I couldn't focus on both at the same time, but I could move my attention from one to the other. This has never happened before, and it was bizarre, and amazing.

Feb
21

Dream follows real-world event by 30 hours

Last night I had another incident where a dream followed something back here in the physical world by the 24-48 hour time window I've mentioned here before. (Actually, earlier I wrote that dreams follow physical world events by 36-48 hours.) Thursday night, probably around 9pm, I watched an episode of Fringe that involved both small and large worms, and then last night (Friday night to Saturday morning) I had a dream involving worms.

Feb
18

A little flying in dreams again

Yippee, a little low-level flying in my dreams again last night. :) It has been a little while since I did this last, and it's always a great feeling and experience. The dreams throughout the night were all action/adventure dreams that I couldn't make sense of, but the flying was great.

Feb
14

Falling asleep is like having two preset radio stations

Wow, many thanks to a friend who helped me out with this analogy.

What I go through sometimes when I go to sleep -- as in last night's dream sequence -- is what would happen to you if you were in a dark room, listening to a radio station with your eyes closed, and then someone presses a preset button and changes the radio to another channel. Immediately you are listening to a totally different broadcast.

Feb
14

Dreams of a song, being drilled in the head, and a dog named Luther

I was a little sick yesterday, and also felt very "ungrounded" as they would say at TMI, more 'there' than 'here'. If you've never felt ungrounded, common descriptions include feeling "out of it", inability to concentrate, a feeling that you can't wake up, and very likely a desire to vomit. I had all of those yesterday, so I figured last night would be pretty entertaining.

Feb
10

A long night of violent dreams

Besides my tornado-like weather dream last night, everything else was also violent in one form or another. First, a recurring dream of two men I interpreted to be spies meeting at a white, round table. They exchanged pleasantries, but they would soon try to kill each other.

Feb
10

He died peacefully in his sleep

Holy crap, whoever said the phrase "He died peacefully in his sleep" didn't have a night like this one. It's just after midnight, and I woke up after battling some kind of psychic or spiritual tornado, or simply a really bad dream. The wind was incredible, and the front door of the apartment was being blown open, and was finally blown open (or possibly ripped open), and while I held on to a corner of the wall, a large black bug moved rapidly towards me.

Feb
8

Hard to talk after meditating

I was just reminded that sometimes after meditating, I find it hard to talk to people. I can generally understand what they're saying, but my problem is two-fold. First, I have to work to formulate a sentence, and second, I have to get my mouth to work properly.

I don't know if this is a common occurrence among people that meditate, but as I just ran into this again, I wanted to mention it here.

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