The Way of the Bull (Leo Buscaglia)
There are times when I feel like I've made a little progress in my Zen meditation practice, and more than that, that this is a road I chose for myself over the last 10-15 years.
However, as I dug through an old box last night the reality of the situation really hit me in the head. There, in a dusty old box laid a dusty old book titled "The Way of the Bull" by Leo Buscaglia, circa 1973. Now, I didn't actually buy that book until the late 1970s, but as I thumbed through it last night the implication hit me like a ton of bricks -- I didn't chose this life over the last 15 years, it's just that I've gone through a bunch of things in life and come full circle to where I really was as a teenager in the late 1970s. That's a humbling thought.
Somewhere along the line I got caught up in the "American Way", and started my climb up various corporate ladders, and gradually forgot about that old book and those teenage thoughts. Then somewhere around 1995 I started becoming very disillusioned with The American Way, and realized my life was coming and going very fast, and all I was doing was working harder and harder to achieve certain financial goals.
Well, I won't bore you with the rest, other than to say that after near brushes with death I saw the wrongness of my ways.
Over time I'll write more here about The Way of the Bull, and share some wonderful quotes from that book. In the meantime I wholeheartedly recommend finding Leo Buscaglia videos and watching them. He seemed like a wonderful person, and a wonderful speaker. (Anyone who had the balls to teach a college course called "Love" can't be too bad.) I think his old series was on PBS, and I imagine those recordings are available somewhere.