Normal life has come and gone
I think my chance at a "normal" life has come and gone. Really, it probably came and went a long time ago, and I've just come to accept it recently.
I didn't choose this life, or if I did, I'm not consciously aware of it. But in 1979 everything changed, and now, instead of trying to avoid it any more, I face it head on. So, whoever wants to deal with me the rest of my life gets to deal with someone interested in Zen, meditation, yoga, astral projection, and the vague concept of "human consciousness".
And that's just the way it's going to be.