Trying to stay on the path, and being tested
October 4, 2010Sigh ... there are times I really feel like I'm being tested. I finally got my head straightened out a little bit lately, practicing a little Yoga and meditating daily again, feeling like it's time to be a good little monk, and then this afternoon while I'm sitting in a coffee shop a pretty young woman kept looking over at me. I could be wrong, it may have been one of those, "He's got a booger in his nose" looks, but I'm pretty sure it was one of those, "It's okay if you come over here and talk to me" looks. When I'm in a mental state like my current one -- where I begin to feel like a spirit visitor who happens to be having an experience on Earth right now in this body (Sting's "We are spirits in a material world") -- I don't know how to deal with this situation, or more accurately, I don't want to deal with it. The way I dealt with it today was to get up and leave. Probably not a brilliant idea, but at least it helped keep me on the path another day. Also, I apologize if this makes me sound like I'm on an ego trip. What I'm trying to say is that it seems like any time I feel like I'm getting on the right track, I'm always "tested" in one way or another.