Tequila/Monk

Faith

July 17, 2012

I haven't written much here lately, mostly because there isn't much to say, and I try not to waste my time our yours with trivialities.

One thing I want to say is that I don't think I've had many OBEs lately because of a variety of physical problems. Starting in mid-2010, in order I have had a severe stomach problem that led to bleeding, shedding a layer of my digestive tract, and 35 pounds of weight loss in six weeks. That was followed by my gallbladder being removed, which led to an infection, and then another related problem that still causes pain. Next up was Hashimoto's disease, which has caused my thyroid to fail; so I'm now on thyroid medicine, and still working on the right dose. Added to that, my urologist believes I probably have prostate cancer, though for some reason we're waiting until my PSA number gets to a certain point before he does a biopsy, probably within the next six months.

Added to that, I've been working a lot, and drinking a little.

OBEs require staying awake and relaxing

My reason for mentioning this is that as I've mentioned in previous posts, there are two major preconditions to having an OBE, and the first is that you must be able to stay awake while your body falls asleep. These days, especially with the thyroid problem, staying awake when I'm supposed to be awake has been hard enough, let alone trying to stay awake while my body falls asleep. Right now when I go to bed I fall asleep fast, and waking up in the morning is hard enough.

The few times I've taken time out to really sleep a lot -- up to twelve hours a day for a few days in a row -- the lucid dreams and OBEs have returned, but until someone wants to pay me to do this stuff, I just don't have that much time to sleep.

The second prerequisite to having an OBE is that you must be able to completely relax, such as the deep relaxation you feel after a yoga class. If you can't release all the physical tension in your body, you're also not going to be able to have an OBE. (You might be able to get one to start, but it won't happen because of the tension.) With some of the pain issues I've had, relaxation has also been difficult for me, but frankly, by taking better care of myself this is a "once a week" problem, where being tired is a daily struggle.

The "F" word

This brings me to the "F" word: Faith.

I tried to explain to a friend recently that I don't need to have any more OBEs, or go any farther with Zen. If my body won't allow it, so be it. I've been fortunate to have what, 100 or 200 OBEs by now? Very importantly for me, I've been able to verify some of those in the physical world, so I don't need any more proof. What I've experienced is well beyond coincidence, and in many cases it has pointed towards some strange relationship with time and (possibly space) that blows my mind (seeing things very accurately that will happen in the near future, or that have happened nearby).

I'd be very happy to have more OBEs, but if that never happens, sure, I feel a little more grounded and mortal than I usually do, but the experiences I've had have led to ... that's right, faith (albeit not the same "faith" others may have).

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