Tequila/Monk

More there than here

September 24, 2012

Dateline Sunday, September 23, 2012: Just a quick note that today was one of those "more there than here" days. The Monroe Institute people had a phrase for this feeling ... not being grounded. When I say there are days I know I can have an OBE, that's what this feeling is.

I wanted to note that it happened today, because this happened one other time within the last 6-8 weeks. I need to look up that date, because I'm trying to see if there is any correlation to this, why it happens when it happens.

As for today, I woke up feeling that way, but had to work. I woke up at 9am, waking up from a bizarre dream where a man sliced a layer of his finger off, and asked us to eat it. Besides wanting to vomit, I thought how bizarre this was. He acted like royalty, like refusing it was a crime.

After waking up and realizing the state I was in, I had to make a choice between trying for an OBE or doing my work. I'm on a tight deadline, so I chose work. I made a strong pot of coffee, but kept feeling this way until about 1pm, maybe a little later. After that I gradually started feeling more and more grounded until I finally felt normal.

I'll try to remember to add to this article when I remember the last day I felt like this. It was also one of those "get out of bed feeling more here than there" days, and on that day I took advantage of the feeling, with some amazing results.

The last time I felt this way

Okay, I took a little time to research this, and it turns out the last time I felt this way was on July 7th of this year, so it was 76 or 77 days in between events.

I know it was July 7th for two reasons. One, a friend had come into town, and I drove her and her son around, and we didn't get back home until late at night, maybe 11pm, and ended up watching Thor until 1 or 2am. Second, another friend wrote me on Facebook. He had been going through some things, so we were talking about those things, and asked me a question. I wrote this back to him:

"I spent about six hours yesterday in an altered state, and experienced an overpowering form of love. In vision after vision, people killed me in many different ways, and I just kept forgiving them ... I felt very strongly that what they were doing wasn't important (for lack of better words), that they were only killing the 'physical me', they felt they had their reasons for doing it, and I forgave them each time, like they were children making a mistake. I don't have the vocabulary to do it justice, but I think the basic feelings were forgiveness and compassion, and it felt like a very true form of love."

I wrote about this here in a blog post I titled, "A Lotus for You, a Buddha to Be". I didn't recognize that title when I searched for the event yesterday; I remembered forgiving everyone who killed me, but I didn't remember using that phrase.

So, whatever that means, without me trying to do anything special, there was a period of 76 or 77 days between "more there than here" events. Should that happen again, the next event will be on December 10, 2012. (That is, if there's any correlation to this based on calendar days.) I guess I'm a free man until then. :)

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