August 18, 2017
Nurse: Do you wake up tired?
Me (muttering): You have no idea.
Doctor: What’s that?
Me: Yes, I wake up tired.
August 15, 2017
Last night I was in the middle of a normal dream, when I suddenly gained awareness a little bit. A younger version of my mother was standing next to me while I was sitting at my usual work desk, and she said something I can’t remember now, but it struck me as sad. She also asked if I thought my sisters would like something, but I couldn’t figure out what she was referring to.
August 5, 2017
As a brief note to self, just because other people don’t experience the world the way you do, that doesn’t make them right and you wrong.
In my case I started having OBEs spontaneously, and then through meditation and yoga practice I’ve been able to build on whatever this is that I was born with. My only goal is to try to prove that these things are real, and through many experiences, such as premonitions and the card tests, I’ve certainly done that, if only to a small extent. Hopefully I’ll get even better at this as time goes on. If other people think I’m crazy, so be it.
July 29, 2017
After seeing a motivational image a few days ago, I’ve been debating about whether I should write any more about the “special experiences” people can have when they go deep into meditation and yoga. Specifically, I’ve been thinking that maybe I should just do what others do and say, “Oh, yes, meditation and yoga can be very good for your health, give them a try.”
July 26, 2017
After many nights of PK/TK dreams and a little flying, I had great fun yet again last night. It started with a dream in a friend’s driveway. I was doing something in the dream, but then lost consciousness. I came back to awareness at the exact same place, but I noticed something in the dream wasn’t the same as before. With some great amount of will I was able to restore that thing to the way it was previously.
June 18, 2017
I try to look at the things I do with lucid dreams and out of body experiences from a scientific and engineering standpoint: How can I prove (or disprove) these things are real? How can I make them repeatable? How can I help other people experience these things?
June 17, 2017
After eating well, meditating, and practicing yoga every night for a few nights, I had a series of fun TK/PK dreams overnight. After that, I had one of those mornings where you want to wake up at a certain time so you can get some things done, but you wake up a minute before the alarm is going to go off and you’re already in a deep, meditative state, so you turn off the alarm and ride the wave for a few hours.
June 8, 2017
As far as I know, I all but died this morning just after 3am. The story goes like this:
I went to bed around 11pm after quietly and mildly practicing yoga for about 45 minutes. I woke up at 1:20am to go to the bathroom. I fell back to sleep, then woke up some time before 3am.
June 7, 2017
I was talking with a friend recently, and they asked, “Are you one of those ‘spiritual but not religious people?’”
After I answered that question they asked, “Are you interested in a spiritual life?”
After some thought I replied, “I’m not interested in a spiritual life — at least not just for the sake of living that way. But I am extraordinarily interested in the life of the spirit. And if that drives me to live what you’d call a spiritual life, so be it.”
May 28, 2017
A sad part of what I experience is that I haven’t had a relative die in almost twenty years who didn’t die without me knowing it first. The only positive things about seeing death beforehand are, (a) you get to see a place that was important to them, and (b) you can occasionally stop a preventable death.
Visions of death happen in a place that’s important to the person who is about to die
When I say that you get to see a place that’s important to the person who’s about to die, I mean that that’s where the vision of death typically appears.
April 29, 2017
Two days ago I was talking to a woman I’ve known casually for about a year. We’ve been getting along great, and I really like her. When I told her I wanted to go to a particular event nearby she made a motion to start taking off her wedding ring, and said maybe she could go with me.
I’m just a little out of practice at any sort of dating thing, so the first thing I need to say is that I had never noticed that she was married. We’ve always just talked like old buddies, so that was a surprise.
April 6, 2017
One thing I’ve been struggling with lately is: When you can’t drink margaritas or have sex any more, where is the fun in life?
More generally that can be stated as: As you get older and your health deteriorates, you’ll be able to do fewer and fewer things that you enjoy, until one day you won’t be able to do any of them. At that point, what’s left?
I’m struggling with this question because Tequila is more in control of things right now than Monk. I know what Monk’s answer would be, I just don’t like it.
March 25, 2017
If my dreams are a reliable indicator, my aunt will pass away in the next two weeks or so. She’s been sick for a while now, so this isn’t a surprise, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.
FWIW, historically these dreams have been like this:
March 17, 2017
“Wait, wait,” I said, sitting on her bed as she took her clothes off. “We shouldn’t do this.”
“Why not, baby,” she asked. “Don’t you want me?” She playfully slid off her pants, then came to me and sat on my lap. As she put her hands behind her back to release her bra, I grabbed her arms to stop her.
“Ooh, do you like it rough, baby,” she asked.
“What? Yes. No. Wait, that’s not what I’m talking about.”
“What are you talking about?”
March 14, 2017
There’s a weird thing that often happens in lucid dreams that goes like this ...
You start off in the dark, you were asleep. And then you’re in a lucid dream, a holodeck-like environment. The environment can be exactly the same as the place you live in, or it might be a little different.
March 7, 2017
I just read a story about a woman who died on the operating table and was brought back to life, and her story reminded me of “categories” of things I’ve experienced during OBEs. I’ll keep this short and just make it an overview.
March 3, 2017
After a few sick days I felt a little better last night. I wanted to try to get back to my usual OBE work, but I still didn’t have much energy. So I laid there in bed, doing my usual relaxation exercises, but nothing happened. With a bit of disdain I thought, “Fine, I’ll just sleep like a normal person.”
February 24, 2017
Had some issues with sanity this morning. Some days my night life interferes with my day life. But I have to keep pushing.
February 15, 2017
Once upon a time – about ten years ago to be exact – after having a spontaneous OBE, I found myself in an unusual situation. As near as I can figure out, something went wrong during the reentry process and I found “myself” (also known as my soul, astral body, energy body, consciousness, or awareness) laying in bed next to my physical body. “I” was on the left and the body was to my right, and we were both laying on our backs, with our heads at the top of the bed and our feet at the bottom (or at least I felt like that was my orientation).
February 3, 2017
In some discussions with friends, and in some posts on Facebook, I try to share some of the experiences I write about here. I’m pretty sure that most of my friends think I’m crazy, at least in this one area of my life.