Passed out

February 19, 2014

Dear Diary,

I felt like crap again last night, tired and with the chills, so I turned up the thermostat to 71 and went to bed full clothed, pulling blankets over me as well. It took a long time to fall asleep, and after I did, I woke up even sicker. I was in the middle of a cold sweat, shaking, and lightheaded. I was certain I was going to pass out, so I got up as fast as I could, still very shaky, turned the thermostat down to 67, and for some reason I don’t remember, went into the bathroom.

I think I went into the bathroom to put cold water on my face and help wipe the sweat off, but all I remember doing is sitting down on the commode. I sat there for a few moments, thinking “Don’t pass out, don’t pass out, you’re okay now”, and then as far as I can remember, after a little while I felt good enough to try to stand up again. It struck me as weird that I was leaning to my left a little bit, and I also noticed something on the floor, but with only the nightlight on, I couldn’t see what it was. I assumed I did something earlier in the day that I couldn’t remember now, and frankly, I didn’t care about it.

I got up, took off my soaking wet shirt, dried myself off with a towel, and put a dry shirt on. I knew I needed to drink some water, so I went in the kitchen and drank some water and Gatorade. I also ate part of an orange and part of a banana, though my stomach wasn’t feeling well, and I didn’t eat much. I noticed it was about 4am. “When did this all start?”, I wondered.

At this point I realized something was wrong with my sinuses. It’s like the bad feeling had spread to my sinuses, and they were running like crazy. I blew my nose several times in the kitchen, then kept blowing it for a half-hour or more when I went back to bed. Geez, this episode really seemed to make my sinuses go crazy.

After some time I finally fell back to sleep.

What I didn’t know

What I didn’t know is that I actually passed out in the bathroom. When I came back into the bathroom in the morning and turned on the lights, the spot I had seen on the floor was vomit, green vomit:

Reconstructing the events, what happened was that I sat on the commode, passed out, fell/slumped over to my left, resting my head on the bathroom counter, and vomited on the floor. Some time later I woke up, and got up. (Late on I would learn that I had also vomited on my left arm.)

How long was I out? I don’t know. I don’t have any clocks in this area. I know that my legs felt a little swollen, and I thought that was unusual, but they weren’t asleep.

As you might guess, the stuff I was blowing out my nose was not sinus drainage. I’ll skip the details, other than to say that it was the same color of the vomit, which I discovered when I walked back to the bed and saw all of the kleenex, and more green goo on the bed.

Closing thoughts

I think I may have passed out one or two times while drinking alcohol when I was 18-20 years old, but that was more like drinking too much and falling asleep. In this case I had no idea that I had passed out until hours later when I saw the vomit on the floor, and put the puzzle pieces together.

It struck me as unusual that I had no idea that I had actually passed out. I assumed there would be some final, “I’m passing out” feeling when I went out, and then some other, “I’m coming back to” feeling when I regained consciousness, but it was just as though no time passed. I may have been out for 15 seconds, or an hour or more, I have no idea.

Hopefully the medicine I’m now on is the correct medicine, and hopefully it will kick in today. I don’t want to go through this again. It’s disturbing to blackout like this, and it’s also disturbing to think that if I fell to the right instead of the left, I could have hit my head very hard on the bathtub.

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