Sleeping on the recliner
Note to self: The last two nights I started each night’s sleep on the recliner. The first night I did it because I was so tired I didn’t feel like getting up, and the second night I did it because the first night’s lucid dreams were so good, and long in duration.
I suspect that there are a couple of reasons that the dreams and consciousness were so good, despite me working 12-hour days. First, sleeping on the recliner can be a little uncomfortable, so I probably sleep a little lighter on it, especially after the first hour or so. Second, and probably more importantly, I think I breathe better when I’m sitting up a little bit like that. Last night on the recliner I could clearly hear my labored breathing while I was asleep. I don’t know if my breathing problem is related to weight, allergies, or age, but even if I’m not snoring it’s definitely an issue.
Regarding one lucid dream sequence, I have to say, it’s hard to forgive certain people for certain things. During a particular sequence I tried to say, “I forgive you,” but my heart just wasn’t in it, so I eventually just said, “Fuck it, fine, I don’t forgive you. What you did really hurt me, and I can’t find it in my heart to forgive you.”
As for the details, alas, those will have to remain a mystery here. Much too personal.