Don't surrender all your joy for an old idea you had about yourself

April 25, 2015

I watched the movie Wild last night, and then read this quote by Cheryl Strayed this morning. I want to say that it reminds me of a friend, but in a way, maybe it reminds me of a lot of people:

As I write this I’m thinking about people I know who stay in marriages even though they’re unhappy, but “an idea you used to have about yourself” can mean a lot of things. For instance, I used to think I was young, but my body keeps failing at an alarming rate, so I know I can’t do what I used to do. I’m trying to accept that, with limited success.

I also remember that when I was in my early 20s I met a family and I thought, “Gosh, I like everything about them and their situation. The husband reminds me of a guy named Kevin I played baseball with, and the wife seemed very nice, too, and was a great cook. And I love their home and their neighborhood, I could see growing old here.” Some part of me wanted that sort of life, but another part of me wanted a different life, and that other part won that battle. (While I’ve met a few people here and there that I really like, I tend to be a loner.)

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